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Stream of Consciousness Sunday: Looking Ahead

Three, two, one, begin.

Writing this to wrap up the week.  I had lunch today with my Mom in honor of my birthday coming up in a few days.  She gave me a card that was really sweet and touching.  A strange thing that almost never happens.  But pretty cool to have a moment where maybe we can begin to understand each other.

We went last night to see War Horse with the parents-in-law.  They love the movie theaters where you can dine and watch the movie so we took them to the newest one of those in town.

I’m hoping to get an interview with another company later this week.  I’m scared and excited because I may have a chance at getting a full-time gig.  Scared because I don’t know if I want to make the change, but I know that it’s way past time.  Also scared because I really suck at working at 40 hour a week, 8 to 5 sort of gig.  But you do what you must to survive.  Money concerns are real and getting more critical as time passes.  I hope I can hack it for a bit no matter what happens.

Not really a lot to say this week on the wrap up.  Writing every day in November was pretty cool.  In January, for my second attempt at a daily post it seems more like a chore.  But I’ll push on even though.  I made the commitment I must stick it out.  What do you all think?  Do daily posts seem a good way to go?  I know that second guessing yourself is much harder when there’s a NEED to post not just a want.  Let me know what you think.

Alright, a big week coming up.  Anniversary and birthday all this week.  And looking forward to a mini-break this weekend to celebrate.  Time’s up!

#SOCsundayThis was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
  • Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
  • Link up your post.
  • Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love. Other participating bloggers can be found at All.Things.Fadra.
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Scared Shitless

A year into playing hookie from a job with a decent salary, vacation time, and health benefits and I’m scared out of my wits.

Some people, like internet music superstar, Jonathan Coulton, can take a year off and turn straw into gold.  Others like me, take that year and mostly squander it away in a drunken, drug-induced haze.  Hrrmm…okay…that DID NOT happen…however when I am a rock star/brain surgeon/samurai it will.

Buckaroo Banzai Group End Credits Photo
Team Banzai!

Jeff Goldblum is DEAD sexy.

Alright, alright, I haven’t completely squandered the last year.  I have accomplished some cool things.  Even more importantly I’ve learned.

Learned things like I value my freedom and loathe working the 9-5 cubicle type job.  I enjoy being in charge and leading a team.  I don’t tolerate carelessness or stupidity.  I’m a hard-ass but I succeed in getting my underlings to learn along the way.  The underlings like me.

I’ve done way too little acting and singing and painting (despite my Painting of the Month project…YIKES!).  I’ve done a lot of crying, a lot of fighting, a lot of being depressed.  I’ve hidden myself from myself and those who love me best.

Sticking my neck out even further by putting on a HUGE hobby show makes me freak out even more.   A show that if it flops will leave me up debt creek without any extra dollars.

Only two weeks away and I’m dreaming about the show, eating, sleeping and breathing this damned show.  But in the end it IS going to work out.  It has to.  How do I know?  ‘Cause if you’re scared shitless you must be doing it right.